MCR changed my life. 

Yes. I know. Like every other fan in the fan base. But I don’t say this lightly. I’ve met some of my best friends. They got me into art. They’ve changed my whole perspective on art and on the world and on people and on music and on life. I can’t picture who I’d be today if I hadn’t discovered them. 

But recently, I haven’t been thinking about them how I used to. I listen to other music. I don’t feel like constantly listening to them or thinking and fangirling over them all the time, and sometimes I feel like that doesn’t make me a fan… That that means that I love them less.

When I listen to them, I feel happy and safe. I love it, I honestly do. But when I don’t feel like listening to them, there’s always something nagging at me that is thinking. “What if I don’t love them like I used to?” 

And that scares me. Because they changed my life. And I don’t want them to be out of mine. I don’t want to not love them.